I can’t sleep.

For the past few days, I haven’t really slept til 6 or 7am in the morning, and waking up feeling tired and sorta lethargic.

My whole body system is out of whack.
I sometimes eat a meal a day, sometimes 3.
Sometimes a lot, sometimes really little.

There are so many things that needs to be done, but I don’t really feel like doing them.
Maybe its my body clock that’s all messed up?

Or maybe its because I’m no longer a student, and I need to start scouting for jobs.

For the past few months I kept rambling about going to China, and then the past few weeks going to Thailand.

But if what I just did was of any concern, I would be staying in SG for the next year at least.

After all, I just queued up for four hours to get my Iphone, and I am now officially contracted to Starhub for the next two years.

Why?

I don’t know when my injury will recover, and I definitely want it to before I go overseas. Ahh, my injury… Sometimes I’m like a normal 20+ year old, and I can walk faster than some people I know. Other times the pain just comes, and I’m forced to walk slower.

And then there are times when I’m forced to sit down altogether. That’s when I get really scared, as I’m brought back to when it first started *shivers*.

I know that I definitely need to start working next year, but what as? Where at? What industry even? Can I make it there? Will I be fine? There are just too many questions that I don’t have the answers to.

As it is, I’m leaving it til 17th Dec (date of MRI scan), and the week after (results of scan) before I make any career decisions. I’m not sure I’m able to take a deskbound job. Sitting for 3 hours at my chair writing the Project Reach entries left me in pain for the next few hours =_=

Argh. It sucks when you don’t know what you want, or you get sidetracked/distracted by other stuff.

Time to clear up my room and do some thinking soon.